Someday Doctor

The start of a thing is the most difficult part.

Last Friday was my first day to set foot on the Texas Tech campus as a student in over seven years. A lot of thought, discussion, and prayer has gone into this decision, but, as with any 31-year-old husband and father, there are so many variables in this equation that it’s impossible to think of them all. So, we’re forced to tackle some of them one-by-one as they show their ugly faces.

And several of them made themselves known over the last few days.

We haven’t given up hope yet, but my decision to go back to school has just become significantly more complex. Our ability to pay our current obligations (car payments, credit card bills, health insurance, etc.) has been impacted more than I had anticipated. Through a series of horrible financial decisions, we’ve dug ourselves a ditch that is becoming increasingly inescapable.

For now, I’m going to stay in class while we try to figure this out. But if we cannot figure it out soon, this journey may be terminated in its infancy.

Any time I leave the house knowing that I will be away for more than a couple of hours, I feel like I need to be prepared for every eventuality; and it is in this spirit that I now have two bags loaded with textbooks, study guides, and my laptop. At first, it seemed like a good idea to be prepared, to have all of my books ready to go in case the opportunity presents itself for a little study time, but when I lugged both bags up the basement stairs this evening, carrying more weight on my shoulders than the FAA would allow on an airplane, I suddenly realized how foolish I must look.

The problem is that I have all three of my classes–Biology, Chemistry, and Physics–scheduled on the same day. And the problem is compounded by the fact that my wife and I are now down to one vehicle, so my wife will be dropping me off at school every day, and I won’t be able to leave any of my luggage in the car to swap out between classes.

So, as soon as I finish this post, I plan on logging onto the university website to see if I can’t get at least one of these classes shifted to Tuesday/Thursday. Maybe that will lighten my load enough so that I’ll only have to take one bag with me.

Either way, I cannot put into words how excited I am to finally be on the first leg of this journey. I’ve been wanting to take this step for over five years now, and thanks to the tremendous support of an amazing wife, I’m finally doing it!

If I have the wherewithal tomorrow, I’ll let everybody know how my first day went.

Today’s lunch break marks a significant point in my journey to become a physician. This morning, I received an email that my financial aid refund was in my account. So this afternoon, after lunch, I bought my first textbooks as a biology major. And now I’m $640 closer to being a doctor.

When I first started this blog, I was not honestly expecting to make it even this far. If you go back to my first post, you’ll see that all I had to hold onto was a faint hope that someday everything would just fall into place. As it turns out, it wasn’t hope that I needed. It was determination. And that determination didn’t really take hold until the day when my dear wife said, “Let’s do this!”

And now I’m on my way!